Personally (no offense John Mayer), I'm not sure how thrilling
change. It appears to me (particularly this summer) that change is a powerful thing that can completely darken one's mood within a matter of seconds once the anticipation of change starts to take effect. Though I would not call myself a creature of habit, I do feel that it takes me a while to fully embrace a new environment, and when I start being able to expect y as a result of x, when that no longer happens, I feel quite uneasy. However, there are certain exceptions, namely times when in a new environment, I completely immerse myself in something (i.e. program) that I have no time to think about the
big change, and I have no choice but to keep moving forward.
Take travel for instance. Though I do love my traveling, without fail it seems, before any huge trip, I get very very very upset, particularly when I am leaving the comfort of my own home. However, as soon as I arrive at my destination (more like as my plane is about to land and I no longer see water, but land!), I become caught up in the moment, and can't wait to start a new adventure. Homecoming then becomes an issue, as I can't wait to be back in my own bed, own bathroom, without ever really having to be afraid of being idle, yet feel nostalgic for the trip even before it has ended.
Looking back on today (the day before I leave for college), I realized that my foul mood can be a hundred percent attributed to the upcoming change (what else can upset someone who is home alone, doing little else than packing?). But then again, I have so much that I look forward to, and I can't wait to be busy again (does that make me some kind of masochist?)
*sigh still pretty awful at writing my thoughts out....they come and go so easily...and so out of order too...
on a side note, hideki matsui is my hero.